Why feeling like Crap is an essential Part of Ascension

What a bold statement is that??? Yes, it sounds odd at first that feeling like crap is supposed to be useful and vital part of our experience, but when we look into the energetic dynamics we go through during our awakening journey, it will make much more sense. Fact is, we need to go through the darkness for various reasons. They all lead up to a beautiful event: Raising our own vibrational frequency and with it, frequency for everything and everyone on the planet.

In order to gain a better understanding we need to look into various aspects of Universal energies. We all went through a programming and have to remember how light and dark actually play together for our highest good.

How the Universe works

There are several universal physical laws, which are truly important to understand and internalize to be able to move forward effectively. They help to get the bigger picture of what is truly going on and what ascension is all about.

1) The Law of Attraction

The law of attraction simply states, that alike energies synchronize with alike energies. What you send out in form of your own vibes will be delivered to you – as you synchronize with the same vibes / energetic wave patterns. That is why you repeat certain situations and lessons until you understand: “I am the one that needs to change, it is not my environment. I create my own reality”. Now – many have seen the film “The secret” and started out with making great vision boards and repeating positive affirmations daily. While this can help daydreaming and change our vibrations for the moment, this film unfortunately leaves out the essential part to successfully manifest our desires: We have to do our inner work. Emotions and thoughts have different vibrational patterns, just as everything and everyone else does in the Universe. While fear frequencies, such as resentment, anger, blame, judgement, grief, sadness etc. are vibrating on a low frequency, love frequencies, such as compassion, gratitude, fun, forgiveness, happiness etc. vibrate on a much higher level. Your “energetic order” to the universe is what you send out vibrationally. That means: If you still carry fear frequencies and with them your learned behavioral patterns and belief systems, expressing those fears energetically into your environment, that is what you order. That is what you sync with. It’s physics.

If you still carry fear frequencies and with them your learned behavioral patterns and belief systems, that is your energetic order to the Universe. And that is what you attract.”

So – vision boards and affirmations are a nice way of forgetting that you still carry the fear for the moment. But they will not dissolve it. That is called spiritual bypassing – trying to avoid the pain and walk around it. Unfortunately, that always backfires. We cannot change the physical laws. The same counts for the belief: “Oh, I simply hand over my pain, fear and worries to my angels and guides and I call upon the violet flame to transmute it all”.

Yes, praying and connecting with the spiritual realms can be an accelerator, just as vision boards and affirmations can be. BUT: Only if we are willing to do our work. Nobody else can do that for us. Not even the angelic realms. We are given a physical body and experience for a reason. And it has certain reflexes and functions to handle and process energies. Just as we have a reflex to throw up, when we have eaten bad food that could poison us to save us from greater harm, we have emotions as our reflex to release energies of low frequencies that are not supposed to be stuck in our system. Unfortunately – we have been trained to believe that emotions are bad and it is not appropriate to act them out. So we suppress them and keep them in the system instead of “energetically puke them out”. When we talk about recognizing that “Vulnerability is our true strength” that is what it truly means: Recognizing the healing power of our emotions by welcoming them with gratitude for the relief they serve us with.

That is the law of attraction at work. If we go into blame or judgment, for feeling hurt, we are sending out a low fear frequency. We are playing ping pong on a low frequency level.”

That is the law of attraction at work: If we go into self-blame and judgment or blaming and judging others for feeling like sh*t or hurt, we are sending out a low fear frequency. That means we play ping-pong on a low frequency level. We might even allow the emotion to come through and we cry, we scream, we shiver: We release the emotion and energy of low frequency and… attract it right back in because of our low frequency reaction. Reacting with gratitude, forgiveness or humor, or even redirecting the energies into something creative or compassionate for others will shift and transform the energies to a higher level. That way there is no way to attract them back in at a low fear level. That takes us to the next important universal law.

2) The Law of Conservation

This universal law states that energy can never dissolve, it can only be transformed. This is not only important for a better understanding of the transformation of energies through the change in our reaction towards emotions that come up for us. It is also crucial for the understanding that the so-called “dark energies” are not dangerous. So many people still believe that we have to protect ourselves from dark entities and energies and shield ourselves. That is what actually gives them the power! When we recognize that we have the ability to transmute all kinds of energies, no matter how dark they are, we can welcome and embrace them and simply change their frequency. We do that through our heart center. It is like a transformer for energetic frequencies. When we talk about surrounding us with light, or being in a bubble of light, then this helps us to create more light from within us and radiate brightly with love.

Light does not fight the darkness, it absorbs and transforms it. Darkness is not dangerous once we know how to transmute it.”

Light does not fight the darkness, it absorbs and transforms it. So these methods are not about protection, they are about absorption and transmutation. Of course – it is not easy to reach that state of being. It takes time for our heart center to get used to being a transformer. It can be very overwhelming and scary in the beginning. But the more we practice, the better we get at it. The less we are afraid of the darkness, the quicker we transmute it into light.

3) The Law of Attention

This is another important energetic law to understand. The energy is directed to where we focus our attention on. Your partner is running away from you and does not want you? Everyone is using you and nobody likes you? The more you focus your thoughts around beliefs like this, the more you give this fear your energetic vote and make this your reality. You are obsessed with watching the news every day that are full of fear and worry and pain? Are you complaining about or even fighting against Trump or ISIS or world hunger? That is what gives it more power. You know it yourself. The more attention people get, the more they will play out the drama. If there is no attention and reaction, it calms down quickly.  So, instead of trying to change other people or situations, or fight and react on the same energetic level – focus on the things that are good. Those things of high frequency. Become an inspiring leader from the heart, without wanting to convince anyone. Support in empowering people to change from within.

4) The Law of Oneness

So often we hear people say: “Why do I have to do all the work? I don’t see the point why I am going through all the pain to help others in their ascension process.” That is pure ego thinking and still believing in separation. Separation is an illusion. The law of oneness supports us in remembering that we are all one and are all part of a larger organism. Just as the individual cells of our physical body are like small people doing their work, keeping the system up and running, we are part of a much bigger eco-system that needs us and our functioning to stay healthy. Just as our physical body gets ill through misprogramming with the wrong data that causes our cells go into chaos, the same happens with this planet. As long as we are stuck in false ego belief-systems, such as scarcity, separation and evil – the system goes out of balance. And it has been for eons. We are now at a point where people wake up and recognize that we have been deceived and that we are all part of the same whole. We are doing our inner healing job, and we contribute with our essence for the one organism we all belong to.

What does Ascension truly mean?

A common misunderstanding that is still very present is that ascension will take us into a different physical place, a different planet. That is not the case. Ascension means that we are moving up in our own energetic frequency we are vibrating on. By doing that, our reality changes. Up to a point where we live in a parallel world and are not attached to any 3D things, emotional patterns, or thinking anymore. We have left drama, duality and linear time behind. It can even happen, that people do not see us, for example sitting in a Café waiting to be served, or people just bumping straight into you while walking. Only those people still in 3D that are waking up and ready for a change will interact with us. Ascension is the expansion in consciousness. We are shifting out of denser energetic environments into lighter energetic structures. Even our physical body adapts and changes to be able to handle these higher frequencies. The further we move through our process, the more we recognize that our cravings change, we cannot handle certain food anymore, our body behaves differently, we might lose or gain weight and we experience strangest symptoms out of nowhere. All of that is related to our body adaptation of becoming a light body.

Creating our own Reality

Having understood these energetic laws and what ascension is all about, it becomes clear that we have to change our manner in handling emotions, thoughts and physical pain. That helps us to move forward quickly and improve our well-being. With applying these laws in our daily physical existence, we become true masters in manifestation and creating the life of our dreams. When our own frequency shifts upwards, so does our environment. We attract different situations into our experience and old-behavioural patterns drop away bit by bit. It is like peeling an onion. Layer by layer, we are getting rid of the painful baggage we were carrying around with us and were continuously packing more onto it for such a long time. A combination of ego-work, inner child work and forgiveness work can be helpful to accelerate the process. The higher we move on the frequency scale, the more we make a difference. Not only for us, but for the planet as a whole. We energetically inspire our environment to raise in vibration, too. People still in 3D who are ready to change will gravitate towards us naturally. We become inspirational with our lifestyle, and share “The real secret” how to ascend and create the life of our dreams.

“How would we be able to help others, if we had not gone through the darkness and pain ourselves? How would we be able to appreciate the light?” 

And how would we be able to assist others, if we had not gone through the darkness and pain ourselves? How would we be able to appreciate the light? Being awake and having ascended does not mean to live in bliss 24/7. It means to welcome all sensations and recognize the purpose and potential in all of them. If we understand that emotional turmoil, thought spirals or physical pain is nothing else but an accumulation of energy, we recognize: This is potential! There is more energy available than usual and we can use this as fuel to move forward even more quickly. This can even be further supported by solar flares, CME (coronal mass ejections) both causing geomagnetic storms, and by earth quakes, volcanic eruptions and cosmic constellations. In times of heightened energetic activity around us, our buttons get pushed even more and everything we still carry inside gets amplified. This is like a catalyst for our expansion of consciousness.

We are Transformers

After having learned all this – we understand that we are transformers of energy. And we do that through our physical body and through our heart center. By experiencing the pain, be it physical, emotional or mental, we are transmuting the energy to a higher level. Feeling like crap is a necessary element of our cleansing and purification. That is what it truly means to transmute darkness into light. And sometimes that means to just lie at home and cry to release or sit in the car and scream all the anger out. The importance is to do it with gratitude and compassion.

Of course, the 3D world would consider us to be completely useless and unproductive when in such a state. BUT: Processing these energies is a very important job we do! We just have to detach from the outdated belief system what work should look like. And: we do not have to understand where the root cause lies for our pain. That is just our mind wanting to understand it.

We can spend a lot of time, energy and money on trying to find the root cause for our pain. That is only our mind wanting to understand. The energy could not care less. It only wants to be transformed.”

We can spend a lot of time, energy and money on trying to find that out. We should be aware though: The energy could not care less. It only wants to be transformed.

So please recognize your power in your vulnerability and emotions to help all of us to move forward quickly. Our emotions are essential for our own ascension and the planet. Living in 5D permanently only becomes possible when we have rid ourselves from all low frequencies. The higher we reach, the less pain and struggle we experience. That is what “Going with the flow” truly means. To embrace, accept and welcome whatever comes up, no matter which energies are running through us. It is important to not identify with them or interpret them. It is just energy that wants to be transformed. This will pass.

Thank you all so much for your important contribution in this transformation <3

The texts I share are always based on my own intuition and/or on experiences of clients, friends and my own. I do not claim what I share to be the ultimate truth. I encourage everyone to only take what resonates to find your own truth and wisdom. As this is universal wisdom, I do not claim any copyright. Please feel free to share this content as long as you keep its message complete so that the meaning does not get twisted. Thank you. Vera


  1. Always love your articles, and they come at the perfect time. It resonates with me and I feel better even though feeling like crap!

  2. What a wonderful article! I knew most of the themes already and still had kind of a breakthrough reading the words. Thank you und much love for this terrific teaching!

  3. Thank you very much! This is the best article on this theme I have every read. It explains the whole process in a wonderful and easy to understand way taking in account all the different aspects! I will definitely pass it on. Love and light to you my dear friend!

    1. Thanks so much Rena! I am glad that what comes through me is of support <3 Much love, light and gratitude to you!

  4. Vera I just love reading all your articles, they are so easy to understand, you are a great teacher… So don’t stop writing them and sending them through… Thank you

    1. Thank you Julie. That is so rewarding to read. I promise I will not stop 🙂 This is what I am here for <3

  5. Such an eloquent, highly informed and informing article that’s sure to resonate beautifully with all those who’ve committed to their own inner journey. Great work, much appreciated share, rgds Barry

    1. Thank you so much Barry for taking the time to read and leave your wonderful comment. I appreciate it so much! Wishing you the best for your journey and thank you for the great work you do. Much love Vera

  6. Thank you SO VERY MUCH. the points you make here are TIMELESS – so Spiritually evolved it has pushed me forth into a NEW LIFE. You are not only so important but letting US KNOW how important we are. As a man, I was brainwashed into the workaholic mindset in life – and as you can imagine – taught that anything not making money isnt work (!) – God bless my parents and society but now I am seeing past the illusions and with compassion and forgiveness – which YOU are teaching me – I am learning to embrace that Spiritual EMotional work is TRUE WORK. In my own life, THIS is the work which has evolved me the most and given me the MOST sense of fulfillment – I have no medals or trophies or pay cheques to show for it yet I KNOW it in my heart more than any physical symbol. I also learn to SEE this INNER MEDAL on others who pass through sufferings too and just FEELING that union with them as my soul tribe FEELS so great! Your writing here is so beautiful it helps me to embrace Oneness with all which is insane for someone like me to try to do. Thank you! Love love love!

    1. <3 Thank you so much Bryan. That is so beautiful to read and I so appreciate your time to write this comment and share your own experience. It is so wonderful to see how far you have come and how you found yourself. Thanks for everything you do and for sharing your light. Thank you, Thank you, thank you! Much love <3

  7. I can not express in words how grateful I am to you for this amazing article. Being a yoga teacher who tries to inspire people and help them to change not only on a physical level but spiritually for the last couple of days I was contemplating on my September teachings about Transformation to higher Being. But somehow I could not put it in words. And when I received and read your article everything that I thought about you put nicely into words. Amazing!! Once again proved to myself – “ask and you shall receive” law works perfectly. Thank you greatly for sharing, supporting and inspiring us with your messages, knowledge and insights. I enjoy and love growing with your articles. With much love, gratitude and blessings from my heart!!

    1. Thanks so much Natalia for your beautiful message and for the work you do. Isn’t it amazing how we all work hand in hand now, combining our gifts and talents to make it happen? Thanks for all that you do. Much love!

      1. Fantastic article Vera and please may i use it in my talks on motivation and inspiring individuals in changing their thinking? Maybe even in video format too? This really helped me understand better that energy doesn’t resolve but transforms.. who knew!?? love that!!!!..

  8. Thank you so much for explaining in an easy to understand format. I feel so much lighter knowing this and bless you for sharing this information. It has come at precisely the right time for me.. Namaste ✨✨✨

  9. This was an excellent article- one of the best I’ve read in a really long time. Thank you for this wisdom, it was exactly what I needed at this exact moment! Blessings!

  10. Thank you so much. Your articles have kept my head truely above water. Puts ego in place everytime. Cant wait to talk with you. Namaste!

  11. Vera I just love reading all your articles, they are so easy to understand, you are a great teacher… So don’t stop writing them and sending them through… Thank you

  12. Hello, my so-called awakening process began late in 2016 and since then I have experienced events of profound weirdness and a few glimpses of stillness. However, my ego is very disturbed that the Source or Being is so unlike the Christian God, ie all good, all loving and all powerful. Also, my ego is dejected at our so-called Higher Selves, who are allegedly entities of love and immune to suffering, yet their lower-selves or 3D us have been, are and will be suffering so so much. And my ego is even more dejected that suffering is OK because it is only an illusion – so are we just characters in something akin to a video game and our higher selves are having fun with all of this. As for love frequencies, I have been AvPD mz whole adulthood and extreme social anxiety since early childhood so I was never actually capable to feel love, gratitude and compassion so my ego is hoping for help from my higher self or so-called death.
    All the best to all of us.

  13. I appreciate your article. I came here in search of some answers after both Hurricane Irma and Hurricane Harvey. I am an empath, and with that gifting, carry other people’s pain and suffering. Christians call this gift burden bearing or being a victim soul. I have been absolutely laid out the last few days by the emotional burden I was carrying. My son has a similar gifting, and he was having the same experience. I woke up today feeling like I had been out partying all night, absolutely exhausted. I do not believe I attract these negative frequencies. Instead, I feel like I am carrying other’s pain and suffering to help them through very difficult situations. This has happened to me with individuals, recently a friend who lost her daughter, but now I am experiencing this on a global level. Very over whelming and exhausting. As the Earth continues to transform (imminent West Coast Earth Quake), I can only imagine how intense these experiences will become for individuals like myself.

  14. You are beautiful.
    The universe can see you.
    I can see you.

    Gratitude for being here – to guide the light workers

  15. I enjoyed your article, but have to comment on one point: It is not only important to understand the root cause of our suffering, it is essential for transmutation. Trying to transmute negative energy without understanding what’s generating it is like washing out a wound but not removing the splinter embedded there. The wound will continue to fester until the splinter is removed. It is absolutely essential for energy healing to do the work necessary to uncover what caused the wound to begin with. Simply crying, screaming, howling it out is no better than the temporary fix provided in “The Secret.” Once the root cause has been found, then transmutation can be performed (Violet Flame meditations are actually *very* helpful for this).

    We do this for ourselves, to ease our suffering. Pretending to do it for ourselves but really only do it to further our Twin Flame reunion is a little like Tahani’s plight on “The Good Place.” She spent her life doing “good deeds” but only out of a sense of competitiveness with her sister. The Universe recognized this and didn’t give her the “points” necessary to get into The Good Place. Living a life of surrender, trust, and self-love only gets us so far with the Universe if we’re doing it in service to our twin. We need to be in service to ourselves.

  16. this blew my mind, awesome article, geniunely love what you do Vera, love peace and positivity bĺessings

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